![]() It’s sort of funny that the day I took the above photo was the day I started to feel sick. Life was careening along at such a hopping pace and then Ka-bammo! I got covid. Posted in Life Lessons, Moody Blues, raving lunatic rant, spilling my guts, word-driven-blogging on Septem6 Comments by SAJ cheers to your health That’s life, right? I hope you are feeling all the big feelings too. I should note that while I’ve had some big sad feelings lately, I’ve also had some really big happy feelings. Finishing the cycle of a feeling lets you move on to the next one. This world is sucky but it would be a shame not to hang in there for the brilliant times, the fun times, the best of times… it’s not time to give up.įeeling the feelings is important too. I found the courage to wipe away my tears and see a brighter side. So many times I’ve been in a really low place and I’ve pulled out some strength from somewhere deep inside myself that I didn’t even know I had and moved my brain two inches to the right to a better place against its own will. It’s a coping mechanism that has a side benefit of action. ![]() ![]() Maybe rallying is a distraction, the act of covering up something deeper and darker that we are not ready to deal with. There are so many jewels in this book! Every single chapter held so much helpful thought. I think I might even need to read it again because invariably I was walking and listening at the same time and sometimes I zoned out in my own thoughts or got distracted by the sunrise or a squirrel or something and I probably missed a jewel of truth. I recently finished listening to “Maybe You Should Talk to Someone” by Lori Gottlieb. You know when you are low and you realize it’s not getting you anywhere? You cry and there’s snot and you blow your nose and notice that your breath is bad because all the acid in your stomach is trying to escape…and while you are noticing all these things in the present, you realize you have two options: crawl into bed, and continue this luxury of sadness and pretend not to exist while still feeling all the feelings OR find something distracting to throw yourself into and trick your brain into thinking life is still worth living. I think this post will be about rallying. I need to throw myself on the screen and see what comes out. I also need to write about the job I didn’t get and the huge crush to my ego that job hunting at fifty is… I think I just need to check in. ![]() I also need to write a post about CC coming to visit and all the fun we had visiting our old haunts. I could write a book about this love story. I also need to write an epic post about my new relationship and how it’s spanned 30 years. (I hate algorithms except when they work for me and then I love them.) She asked me to write it weeks ago and here I am sitting on it while I stress about not being able to pay my bills. I need to ask for reviews for them to beat the amazon algorithm. My publisher has tasked me to write a link-heavy post about all the books I have written. I’m just stuck on a lag! I can’t seem to get over it. Because I am overwhelmed with lag!!! I’m still here. And you all wonder why there are crickets chirping on this side of the internet. Years of content go by in my head and nothing gets written. I think I just feel overwhelmed with life and time is a concept that doesn’t make sense.
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